Shihua an ordinary railway police story

Shihua, 42-year-old, an ordinary railway police. Not long ago, has just finished breast cancer surgery, chemotherapy is still continuing. Shihua was obvious with the occupational characteristics: strong, readily, Taitailielie and rough in the fine. Shihua interview, she was in a friend's house. Shi Hua said ill after his brother's house to free up her live, immediately to begin renovation. "Yesterday I was on set with the decoration companies", she would like to see the decoration themselves, because to let others do not stare at her confidence. Shihua friend told me that she should Qinliqinwei everything, Taidalielie Although the surface, in fact very carefully. "I Zhaimao son," Dale Ge invited, Tiliaoguangtou Shihua point of the cigarette, she said that the original finish to quit smoking after surgery for sure, but the doctor a very human touch, then let her connivance of his, "The doctor said it would like to be out at the appropriate Shaochou point." May be "old cancer" is still short, Shihua talk about the pain the most is the experience. Operating table to my own signed the The first is a proliferation of breast found by chance, Butongbuyang a lump, I never Nata Dang matter. In fact, we units per year in addition to a normal physical examination, the women returned to arrange a medical examination, but I have never been, I think he will not sick, not the usual kind of Jiaoqi on the people, what a cold fever, an anti-resistance in the past , Did not expect this time-"generously". In particular the six months before the surgery, it Meng long, but I was not the hospital. The end of last year, careful not to cook at home to burn the eyes, living in the hospital for five days, will soon be discharged, I went to visit cancer awareness before a doctor, the way she would like to look at, the doctor shocked, Experts in diagnosis, I hasten to require hospitalization surgery, so I go from eye cancer. At that time, precisely to the Chinese New Year, I insist, such as the End, the re-operation, this also delayed for some time. Others are being pushed into the surgery or a wheelchair into the operating room in a large group of family members waiting outside. My mother told Mogan age too much, my brother in the field film did not tell him that I Pidianpidian a person with the doctor entered the operating room. Liuzi taken out of operation is long, and I asked to see one, that was a like Kao Baishu such a big pink things, the doctor said there are lumps, it cut a small mouth, revealing a gray meat, The naked eye can see things like a small grain of rice. At that time, the doctor told me: "Shihua, not so good, but pull, such as pathology report is not out to see the need to continue to do so." I was pushed to the operating room corridor. His right hand forced Zuoxiong wounds, Yan Baba waiting for the fate of the ruling, I think the waiting time is longer than a lifetime. Henluan mind a time, but have a feeling: I think doctors in the operating table for many years, the general can also use their experience to judge a few, but at the same time feel lucky: may be a false alarm, what things are It did not. The test results come out, the doctor told me: We both have to a large area to clean. This has nothing of the. My first thought is: can not let my mom know, and then think of is to inform my good friend to the hospital. The doctor with me to discuss this first with the left, and then only open another pathology testing, because the breast is also another serious proliferation. Then I became a special cooling-off: both with bar, two pain and a pain! I convinced the doctor has changed. I am afraid the bear is a painful, the doctor had to let me a second surgery. Because without the experience, whether painful, so also do the surgery, and so I know after this painful process to the second, then I estimate that the psychological burden than to serious illness, I do not know they are not also Have the courage to come back with another doctor judgement of the breast will not be too good, I agree with the request, saying that to the families of the signing, I said no to family members, I have come, for their own signed the surgery, Later, patients ask me the time of signing Shoudou no buffeting, I said no buffeting a little bit, special decisive. Finally biopsy results show that I belong to the other breast that severe proliferation, if not removed, then at the same time, such as the restoration of a section of a surgery done, then "kill" another. I do not have as many patients as a wide variety of choices-conserving surgery, said White, to whom I look at it, completely radical, keep life is the first one, not any other burden, to mention this counted as the single " Advantages ". The doctor gave me an operation later Haigen to chat with me, that I admire very, calm, resolute, unlike other patients, and said to me the employment-related, I might say yes. Hui to go to three I finally into the barber shop After the surgery, I was "Wuhuataibang" lying in bed the whole three and a half days, was a dynamic Chazhuo tubes also can not move, only to head to Rotary. Zuiteng the time is pulling the tubes, clean the wound, the kind of feeling now like to also Sixinliefei, I was at the scene of two students, that female students simply can not by me, after also scared to see the wound in pa Cry on the pillow, by male students had to clean the wound when I have Dan Qilai the Tengde. However, a tube pulled out, I get out of bed on the world's greatest experiences. Patients say that I am brave, in fact, I can not lie down in bed. I like this group of people playing, playing what line is not at home Daizhao, I told my Ma Shui-Youchou. That you may not believe that the fever of 40 degrees faster, people playing mahjong San Queyi, I will be to "save the market." If this is also not allowed to lie down again mad » I was invasive ductal carcinoma stage , at first I do not know anything, Zhuizhuo asked the doctor, she did not tell me, but I understand that the most serious is Ⅳ stage, I view this enough heavy. To a person at this time there is a contradiction of the special psychological: fear that illness and want to know, the fact that the more psychological pressure on the bigger, but still could not help but ask. Sometimes think such a high level of medicine, there is nothing to fear, sometimes carefully pondering: Do we should really be dead » This is too reprisal of the bar, I do not live enough. And do not have to say what the thing did not stem, at least I am not playing enough then, a relaxation of the heart is well alive. The previous unit with colleagues held a joke: the dead had died on what is there to fear. But now see is not quite the case, the only truly understand how life should be cherished. Some time ago I always cry at night, I Bingyou Men Zaijiao "soldiers", I told them: "the soldiers" did not cry when you see. In this disease in people are aware that surgery is only a first step towards the end of Long March. The next chemotherapy is a major ordeal. For us in terms of such patients, chemotherapy can not be omitted a part, is the infusion of chemotherapy, kill cancer cells in the liquid and also killed a large number of cells useful life. As WBC too low (I sometimes low to the WBC 1600), Bahrain before chemotherapy or white needles, chemotherapy was begun by the arm wrist from the bottom-up, a chemotherapy, those blood vessels become very brittle, next only In the upper point of. Bingyou Men said he had no placehave to foot-binding, I can not let that foot firmly, if problems Zou Bule way how to do. On the third day after chemotherapy, is the most difficult time, response to systemic chemotherapy joint pain, the whole people will Tengde deformation, Melania libertina do a mission, the reduction in bed unable to tremble, eating a meal of the efforts have not, that I really feel is not described. After think, what people most courageous, chemotherapy patients should be counted as one of the. Diao Toufa chemotherapy is the "success" one, as if no one can escape Guozheyiguan. In looking at patients who heads the Xixilala several Liu hair, I was saddened on: "Anyway, sooner or later have to swap, to swap a little bit more uncomfortable mind, as the rationale for a skinhead." So I decided to swap hair shaved before . But this is easier said that done is not so easy, you want a woman, has no breast, no hair, not to others, you have to explain it to ourselves. I find a special small barber shop, he was at the time of the Barber, the chef so later, the ride is two minutes, I do not want to shave, leave out, and take the tens of meters and folding back to the gate , And turned away, this time went even further, finally returned to barber shop. Barber, I have been hand-Wuzhe eyes, wait until the chef said, "Well," I only came to the heart. In fact, the past, I really did not too concerned about my hair, how his life has become Duochoushangan patients, these people do not really have any treasure what, there is nothing to think what! However, I firmly refused to wear false caps, I suspected heat, but no matter how false it is also a really can not. My hair is now a one to the enemy, the swap out on the bar, Fortunately, the future still up long. I am sick to the weight of a friend Illness is really a special painful thing, but you can really get the things you are not normal times. My situation is rather special, others did not want to get married one of the people had the disease and more miserable, I really did not feel that. From my surgery that day on, when I was small the number of students take the initiative to bear on the work of my accompanying them during the day and evening shifts, I envy my patients who, because their families can not have so many of my friends. In fact, I was looking for a care workers, friends worried, not just his or her, they also let their family members to me Aotang, up all kinds of tonic. I found that usually are too busy to meet with friends Gubu Shang Zhe Kuaier have the skills, I told them jokingly, if not disease, where I love to so many ah. I like this straight to straight to, would not say that too many thanks, it is often touched by a cry. I do not love is a thing to the people, then often pondering: What is a friend, your friend is the most helpless when you let down the people at ease, is to help you instead of Qiu Huibao people. To them, I have to make it alive. Friends know that I love, each time after chemotherapy, after a period of reaction, they go out with me, as long as one out, as long as they are all together, I will not feel that they are patients. The first was the most fun to Shidu, we fight Shuizhang the same gang of people on board, which in the past, which is my opponent, but now I do not carry arms, with fixed Chuanjiang, unable to fight with them, I think a good, and so again the next time, bring water Yaozi, poured directly to them, it is estimated that no problem. Let's say I told them like this any more than 40 years of age, is like a group of children. They said that I thank you for providing this opportunity, my illness so that they understand that life is the most cherished things, health is first, people can not live in the pressure, the relaxation time must relax . There is also a move from patients, may be the same fate so that everyone's heart stickers very near, the same as their loved ones. Understand or do not know the patients you will find it very cordial, if the chemotherapy is done to catch up with whom no one around, we will take the initiative to take care of you, friends, colleagues, sent to visit very often the things we enjoy together, we live a no wards No child elderly woman, I have given her a lot of nutrition, said she moved to live better at home than in hospitals. You will find that all the people so enthusiastic, so good, an old saying in a risky, the world everywhere have the truth. That urban indifference, to ward spent, it is estimated that will change. (Li Ke Yi also contributed to this article, expressed thanks for this)